some nights for some reason i feel like i have to pray for the safety and protection of all the children, all the children everywhere.

it's not a mantra or a ritual, it's just something that i have to do sometimes.

it hits me like a brick and i can't rest until i do it.

and then on days like today i wonder, why didn't i feel like that last night or this morning.

would it have changed anything.

i don't know.

last night i didn't pray for all the children, just my baby.

i didn't pray for all those precious, beautiful babies.

i want to hug all those babies,

protect all those babies,

stop that man from hurting those babies.

i want to hug the people who can't hug their baby anymore.

i want to hug them and never let go.

i can pray for them but i can't even put it all together in my head.

i can't think straight.

but God can read my heart. 

He can read my prayers for those families because He can see straight through me.

He can read my prayers for the scared children who walked out of that school.

my grandfather lost his leg in a car accident and i've heard from family that after the accident he sang a song about asking God why when we see Him.

i can ask God why.

i'm allowed to ask God why.

and when i see Him face to face He will tell me how He hugged those children.

how He holds all life sacred from those precious babies to the unborn babies to the babies who's minds never grow up.

how those babies were His babies.

Jesus loves the little children, all the children of the world.

and when i teach my baby and all the babies i'm allowed to influence in my life i will teach them that all life is sacred because God holds it sacred.

i promise.